spending time with my best friend is the best. I wish she didn't have to work so much while she was here... but that's also what brought her here, so i am thankful. she leaves tomorrow :((

Reading "Knowing God" by J.I. Packer the past few weeks has honestly been one of the most uplifting, humbling, eye-opening, amazing experience. and I'm only on Chapter 5 (out of 22). It's just insane.

I want to get re-baptized for sure within the next few months - i was as a baby (grew up in the Catholic church) but i don't really believe that it counts, not in the way that i want to dedicate the rest of my life to Christ, live each day by His Word. I want to declare to the world, to my friends, to my family, to the church and to God that JESUS IS MY EVERYTHING. And I'd love to have that done once i move to LA in May @ Grace Community Church. I was kind of wrestling over whether to get it done at my church here or there, and i would like to get it done as soon as possible - but I'd also love to share this celebration with people I'm really close to along with in a Church that is going to hold me accountable and where i plan on residing as soon as i move. When Angel brought me to Grace over winter break it was just a perfect fit... i instantly felt so welcomed and in my heart i knew it was a church and a community that i would like to be a part of.

I miss my family like crazy .. especially my Dad. It's going to be very hard once I'm in Los Angeles to be farther away from them, Thank the Lord for technology - ie. Video chat. i don't know how I'd get by without it. March is going to be a wonderful month i get to see Angel and my family over spring break + Mine & Angel's birthdays :)

k more later.
LOVE.

Blessed

I hardly ever use this thing.
And now it is almost pointless since my best friend got me an Amazing new journal for Christmas. which i LOVE.
- It has license plates all over the cover = because i love traveling. duh. she knows me too well.

But i guess that journal is just for me and on here everyone else can know what I'm thinking...
good thing? bad thing? haven't decided but i think ill make an effort to do it more often.

Currently reading: "Knowing God" by J.I. Packer which has been so Amazing. There really is no way to describe the overwhelming feeling of getting to know our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Each paragraph is so eye-opening and heart-wrenching. I highly recommend it. It is also pretty amazing when i get to share this experience with someone who the Lord has undeniably placed into my life. It's crazy when you receive a friend who just makes you a better person and puts you in a good mood on a daily basis.

We are all blessed in Jesus Christ! -Blessed is a big word, and shows up very frequently in regards to God. Three times in one verse actually. We talked about this in church this week.

"Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who hath blessed us with all spiritual blessings in heavenly places in Christ" Ephesians 1:3 (KJV)

Blessed can be seen 3 ways in the greek language like it is in this verse.
1. Blessed - Eulogetos = to give praise
2. Blessed - Eulogeo = to be favored by God
3. Blessings - Eulogia = A benefit

I think that i wan't to get a tattoo of number 2. Eulogeo. To be blessed/favored by God. HUGE and AMAZING.
obviously i need to think about it more though. i love tattoos.

On another note: My Spring semester of school has started. - I just switched my major to Criminal Justice (in my last semester) so that i could graduate on time. I'm really enjoying it actually. I always liked Criminal Justice - which is half of what Forensics was. Now I am going to graduate on May 14, then have to take two summer classes till the very beginning of July. That's CRAZY - like I am going to have a bachelors degree from Loyola University this summer. Where did the time go???
This also means my plans to move to Los Angeles will actually become a reality in July.
WOW.

The only thing I'm not ready for is to be farther from my family. I miss them enough as it is and im not even 6 hours away.

Most of my friends know, one of my guilty obsessions is the disney channel & abc family. I'm not ashamed. I just started watching a new show called "Make it or Break it" on ABCF and its soooooooo good. i LOVE it. ;p

ok enough.
this has been an update of my scattered thoughts for the moment.


x0 - Ash Kay

It's been a while.

It's 7am in Columbus, OH. Currently I am at the airport waiting to go back to Chicago. I got one hour of sleep last night, luckily i have time later today to catch up.

Leaving my family is always hard. My brother has grown up ridiculously fast. I took him shopping for his Freshman homecoming this Saturday. Adorable. My Father is the strongest person i know and is my hero. My sister is now a freshman in college, I'm very proud of her.

School has been very difficult for me for the past month. I think the biggest part of it is the fact i don't want to do Forensics anymore. My classes seem impossible and it's hard to concentrate on something that you're not interested in. My dream is to work in the music industry. I hope to make that a reality as soon as graduation comes around this may.

Besides school i've never been happier. I owe all of that to God and the people that he has given me in my life. I have recently made a new friend. This person doesn't know it yet, but they have made an extremely huge impact on my life for various reasons and i feel blessed to have the people in my life that i do.

I cannot wait to move to LA in 8 months. I feel like I've been waiting for this my whole life. I think the only thing that will be difficult for me will be being that much farther away from my family. But Luke & Kevin are my family as well. We started doing a bible study through skype - I cannot even express how amazing it is.

I have been struggling with a few things lately, nothing new. Through reading the Bible so much more recently i feel stronger in dealing with everything. One verse in particular has been heavy on my heart lately.

"And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins" (Mark 11:25)

Why is this so hard for me? Why is it so easy for me to forgive anyone and everyone in my life but my mom? I want to, i do, so why is it that even if i say i forgive her i don't mean it? at least not fully.

Currently playing: Brandi Carlile - Before it Breaks [Give up the Ghost]

x0x0 - God Bless.

*!!! Explosion !!!*

SoReal Cru

Who is SoReal Cru you may ask? Only the sickest dance crew that was ever on America's Best Dance Crew on mtv.
Last night, Sunday May 10 2009, Chuck & I went to UIC to see SoReal Cru perform and attend a meet & greet! We were wearing our SoReal Cru shirts that we bought last year! It was also my first time ever taking the red line that far south! lol But we got there and were one of the first in line to go through the doors. We made some new friends and also ran into a few of Chuck's friends as well. Once we got in we got floor seats right in front of the stage!

The show started with a few dance crews from the school performing. Some of them were really good! Then the dance off... haha basically they just wanted a bunch of individuals to come up and dance. and of course, the MC calls Chuck to come up! haha Some of the dancers were awesome, Chuck was great! and so funny! Brian ran out at one point when it was chucks turn to dance! The people that went up for the dance off got to put their names in the list to be first for the meet & greet!

Then.. SoReal Cru came on!! So they start their routine and about a minute and a half in the music gets messed up. Attempt nummber 2 - same thing happens! lol But They were so cool about it and funny! The third times a charm! They were so fucking Amazing! I wih i could dance like that sooo bad!




After they danced Chuck & I got our white shirts autographed and took some pics with them! They loved that we were wearing their shirts esp that we had the two "rare" ones! there was only one or two other people there that had shirts on and they werent the old ones like ours! They were all so sweet and funny! Ailyn & Jackie were Awesome and are def my favorites! I love all the guys too! <3>









PS. Chuck i LOVE you!!! :-)