Leaving my family is always hard. My brother has grown up ridiculously fast. I took him shopping for his Freshman homecoming this Saturday. Adorable. My Father is the strongest person i know and is my hero. My sister is now a freshman in college, I'm very proud of her.
School has been very difficult for me for the past month. I think the biggest part of it is the fact i don't want to do Forensics anymore. My classes seem impossible and it's hard to concentrate on something that you're not interested in. My dream is to work in the music industry. I hope to make that a reality as soon as graduation comes around this may.
Besides school i've never been happier. I owe all of that to God and the people that he has given me in my life. I have recently made a new friend. This person doesn't know it yet, but they have made an extremely huge impact on my life for various reasons and i feel blessed to have the people in my life that i do.
I cannot wait to move to LA in 8 months. I feel like I've been waiting for this my whole life. I think the only thing that will be difficult for me will be being that much farther away from my family. But Luke & Kevin are my family as well. We started doing a bible study through skype - I cannot even express how amazing it is.
I have been struggling with a few things lately, nothing new. Through reading the Bible so much more recently i feel stronger in dealing with everything. One verse in particular has been heavy on my heart lately.
"And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins" (Mark 11:25)
Why is this so hard for me? Why is it so easy for me to forgive anyone and everyone in my life but my mom? I want to, i do, so why is it that even if i say i forgive her i don't mean it? at least not fully.
Currently playing: Brandi Carlile - Before it Breaks [Give up the Ghost]
x0x0 - God Bless.
